I almost did something i wld deeply regret

on impulse.

it's jus like im back to the hell days..
and u need a standing ground desperately...
i totally lost my senses..
n i didn't know wad i was tinking of at dat pointa time...
i mus stand by my beliefs..
i dont wan to lose it all jus like that

did i say
i cant wait for the end of the term to come
it means
OLP over
season over
lessons over
everything over
n the commencement of my trip

in the meantime it's BIO OLP n more of OLP.... it's dat guy hu's driving me crazy.. he's seriously reached my limits.. n gone over his limits... i so cant stand his attitude..
honestly speaking im fine wif pple hu dont do their work(not as if i fers day know them)
but i cant stand pple hu act responsible.. n kip toking shit n acting as if he's sum responsible freak wen he's nt doing anithing...
n he kips asking.. can we meet up can we meet up
n i feel like telling him
u think i haf a lot of USA time to discuss shit wif u issit
the amt of time i spend on OLP is !@#$%^& alr..


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i had a tok wif him today.. prettyae sad for pam... sumtimes i feel the sch system is a little corrupted.. whether it's PE dept.. or the house comm issue.. or the indieventure trip.. i so realised certain things r beyond the control.. n i got my share of unfairness alr..
wen i go out into the world i noe i will get even a greater cut of such stuff.. n thou i dont quite like it. i noe i hafta accept it..

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my fitness damn jialat now... it's not stamina.. but the leg strength is gone leh.. the weights i do go down by at least 10kilos.. jus doing 52 kilos of leg curl-up alr got problem keeping my butt on the chair.. wen running the legs like damn heavy like dat.. cannot open up stride length..

but it's good thing.. no wonder i feel my calve muscles shrinking.. i shld stretch more.. it's beneficial..